At One, At Once

As we sailed into the seas of uncharted desperation,
there is nothg but your absence to cause exasperation.
While love was once a mystery, a journey not worth taking,
loneliness is now a forgotten friend, a pain not worth faking.

You took my hand and showed me strength never before on display,
and made me question everything, even how I'd lived this way.
Fear became the enigma, courage sitting on my shoulders,
where once I'd sit right in the back, I now show up much bolder.

So, how come when I've only just found you, you must go away,
if I want to keep on talking to you, I must learn to pray...?
I know I'll undertake this, though, with all that you have taught me.
I'll face up everyday, now, with these new eyes that you brought me.

1/4

I've been dead for 25 years
and way too many shirts are soaked through with tears.
I've been laughing myself through the anger
and everyday brings a brand new set of fears.

I've been dead for 25 years
and seen the demise of all my inspiration.
I've scratched words of faith in my skin
and everyday I'm closer to complete desperation.

I've been dead for 25 years
and 15 of those since childhood's end.
I've been told that I was unwanted
and everyday I'm forced to remember again.

I've been dead for 25 years
punching the clock as the system's new toy.
I've been sure that I was important
but everyday I know I'm just a scared little boy.

Snowed In

Last night we broke the threshold
and peeked through the crack in the door.
This morning we felt the new mold
as it slowly built up on the floor.

Last night we laughed like gods on fire,
every single object was there for the taking.
This morning we shade ourselves from the pyre
knowing all the kind words were just sycophants faking.

Last night our lives were sworn away by credo & by word.
We knew absolutely everything; the only way was all the way.
This morning, though, all vision is doubt, everyone is blurred,
and we know damn well we don't know shit, except fear of a new day.

Exascerbate Hate

...first will fall the despots of falsely favored nations
sleeping in peace, waking to obliterations
next will find the middle class succumbing to decrees
finding all new kinds of pain, crawling on their knees...

...and death will be a welcome burden to all of the faithless
clutching straws while losing flaws as fire melts their faces
falling victim to the kingdoms we had left abandoned
knowing only retribution, loading up their cannons...

...burn the pages of the holy books to fight the cold
as sleep becomes a luxury, a pasttime of the old
all the questions fading now and none of them are answered
as boils, locusts, red rivers replace what we called cancer...

...hypocrisy was killing me before this deadly winter
the pain I had to wallow in now no more than a splinter
for our will has taken us down and everyone is screaming
Cerberus slowly salivates, the River Styx is teaming...

'Matthew 19:24' or 'Accounts Receivable'

You just keep sucking that dick of infiniti,
proud to be the bane of divinity,
chasing that shit till you fall behind,
then seeking the holy to crawl behind.

The pockets are full & the paper is folded.
The wife is in bed & the kids have been scolded.
You pretend not to seek the help of the wiser,
while swallowing scotch & products from Pfizer.

Awake to the miracle and know your sin,
and seeing the crush of the ego begin.
The walls are still closing, the knees cannot bend,
and the soul is the last thing that you try to mend.

Family Portrait

And now we find ourselves engaged in civil war, choosing between redemption, and living with the poor. The frame is cracked, the glass is shattered, we've all been cast to sides. Each one will choose a weapon, a stance, the rule that he abides. The great enemy is dug in well, prepared now for hatred, prepared now for hell...

And the daughters bring forth tears to equal the mother's years. The unwanted son can no longer run. Father is bathed in sunlight, basking in the glow, laughing silently every second, enjoying all the show...

The landed gentry is benevolent, the gifts are always there. The peasants are distracted, they forget to miss the care. These occasions, these meetings, none by chance, and never advantage is taken, all day we're made to dance. Begging for the scraps, kissing the feet of the master, no power for ourselves, no dealing with disaster...

And how the stones do move at my command, how the fair are driven from the land. How shamefully I bestow the yoke, though told before I am the joke. Bearing witness, breaking fitness, unable to testify, breaking sweats but not for any august found here in July...

We pray not for your disappearance, but for your impossible change, some fantasized ability to let your comfort be rearranged. Your throne is built too sturdy, the foundation set in stone. So, why if you're still here do I still feel so alone?

endtime paradigm

these words we live by become these mantras we cry become these notions we chuckle at as we die

these friends that ring true become these spectres we cling to become the beautiful gravestones we drunkenly sing to

this music to our ears becomes a source of great tears becomes a reflection of failure and our enduring fears

this love we trust in becomes this cage we rust in becomes the unending battle we think we must win

this money we treasure becomes the thief of our leisure becomes the worst possible ruler by which we measure

this sex we try for becomes the loneliness we cry for becomes the wants we don't need that we soon die for

this hate we run from becomes as steady as a drum becomes the edge & the anger to which we all come